I am god, yes with one “o”

I got down on my knees to pray one night and after a hearty prayer, I realised that I was the only person in the room. I was talking to myself, I was asking God for a lot of things including forgiveness for my sins and giving thanks for all that was good in my life. Yet I was the only person in the room. This was not the first time I prayed. The difference with this night is that it all became clear to me that I am God. Let me get into the rationale of how I got to that conclusion before you scream blasphemy like it’s going to bother me. The simple and straight forward one will be to say that I am God’s child and therefore the child of God is a God. The teachings of the bible says we are all children of God. I am not going to get into whether you are a God or not. Let’s make this about me shall we?In the bible it says that God made man in his image, so maybe I am a demi-god, god nonetheless. I mean I do not have all the Godly powers like controlling nature and that kinds of stuff. I do however have demi-god powers. I pray to myself and I answer my prayers. Stay with me don’t let me lose you. Think about all the things that we look for outwardly in prayer. Love, happiness, forgiveness, appreciation, acknowledgement, good health, money, etc. How many memes have you posted saying that do not look to someone else for your own happiness? Before you can expect someone to love you, you need to love yourself first? I could go on. If the expectation is for all these things to come from within then I put it to you that you have to be some kind of a god to be able to access that ability to do those things.

Now that I have acknowledged that, I realised that God (let’s call the source of creation God for ease of argument until I makeup a new name) created a self-sufficient, self- sustaining system that we live in, galaxies wide. He does not expect much from us but to tap into the god within us to make the best out of the life we have. I have reached some nice level of enlightment and the realisation that I have all I need within me to be the best I can be. I have a role to play in this world and it was only after realising that I am god that I started to really pursue my purpose. I believe that to this very day my purpose has always been staring me in the face but I was not enlightened enough to see it. I made reference to the bible in getting to my realisation, does that mean I believe in the bible? I don’t, but like any book written by some dudes many years ago, you can find sense in it and relevant reference to make a point. I just don’t have the sense to make millions of rands out of it because that would be exhausting and that is not my story.

The cool thing about knowing that your god is that you start believing in yourself in a way that makes possibilities seem endless. You are not afraid to try out new things. You are honest with yourself about what you think you can achieve and what you think you can’t achieve. You know the prayer “God give me the wisdom to change the thing that I can change and accept the things that I can’t change, and the wisdom to know the difference”? I know the difference. Yes I do ignore it sometimes because I am only a demi-god, again I say a god nonetheless. Even a god sometimes makes excuses.

I don’t go to church, I don’t affiliate to religious groups, I am not an atheist, I don’t believe in God as portrayed in religious books. I believe that all that is what we know has to have come from somewhere, and with my godly thinking juices flowing, I will call that source Oricre (Original Creator, I must caution to trying to make a better name from the combination). I will stick with being god for again, the ease of argument. There are many things I don’t have answers for about life and where it started and where it’s going, and I must say that as a god and knowing where I am supposed to be going is enough knowledge for now.

May the god in you rise and bring you to your full potential. The answers to the questions that you seek are within, look inside and you will find them.

The King aka Coach H

I dedicate this one to The King’s hiking crew

Now this is one of those days when I get to realize how precious my life is to me, I realized the I am not afraid of checking out but I am not ready to checkout yet. While still on the checking out tip let me tell you what happened to me not that long ago. To be exact it was last Wednesday while I was in Kenya on business. I had gone to a place called Magadi, some good 120km or so outside Nairobi (don’t you dare quote me on the distance). The meetings went great and The King was feeling good, even pleased with himself for knowing the people he met, they be good people that I am happy to be working with. Anyways fast forward to back in Nairobi that afternoon and stopping for pizza for lunch. It turned out the pizza I ate was not happy to be eaten by me because I started having stomach pains like I have never experienced before. I was so scared of dying in a foreign country by myself. I did not die, I got help from my doctor who sent me a prescription. I came home Friday, still with the toxins in my system. 

So this post is not about me getting sick, I told you all that to set the scene and maybe to dramatize it a bit. So arriving in SA I got some of my hiking crew and we went straight for Mpumalanga for the last hiking weekend for the year. I could not afford to miss it. I believed that being in the mountains will clear all the toxins still left in my blood. Now this right here is when I actually start dedicating this post to my crew. When we got to the camp site, we had to wait for the rest of the crew to arrive. Network was not so great and so were the roads. As we were waiting now getting a bit worried, one of the guys we were waiting for appeared from the darkness. The car was stuck. Took us literally the rest of the night to sort out that issue and get the rest of the crew to the campsite. Eventful night you would think, but that was not even close to what was still to come.

Normally when we start a hike I set my GPS device to track the distance covered but for some reason this time I was okay with not knowing. The hike started slow and easy, I was not well but my crew was great support, the pace was very accommodating and everyone showing concern for their King. The hike went on and it was all great. Until we got to a point where everyone just wanted out of the mountain. We got to a cross road and the road mark was showing we need to turn right but one guy, the guy who appeared out of the darkness the previous night, he insisted we turn left as that was the closest way back, he was right however that was not the trail and I was habouring wishes of a night hike. At this point we split into 3 groups, one went with him to go get a car at the campsite and one group waited for the car and one group came with me to follow the trail. It was late and we were on borrowed day light. I got my wish of a night hike.

The trail was so long that the two other groups found each other and went to the campsite to wait for our return but nothing, they got worried and started driving up and down looking for us, I was having a great time in the jungle in the dark. It was scary and dangerous and exciting all at once, an experience that I will treasure. I could give you the details but I don’t feel like it right now. I want to get to the point already. This was my best hiking weekend by far, it was so many things at once. I could tell you that everyone of my crew will remember this for a very long time to come. Not all will remember just the excitement, there was worry, tears, fear for the life of The King and those with him in the jungle doing a night hike that was not planned. 

I love adventure so much that I put my crew in danger, yes they are tax paying adults but I could have taken a better leadership call and I did not. People made choices that I am not responsible for but surely influenced. The way everyone came together to ensure that everyone slept at the campsite was very humbling for The King. I am very proud of my crew and their shared love for the outdoors is on bond that will keep us going from mountain summit to the next. Even after the not so great judgement call that I made it still turned out to be a great weekend. I want to thank each one of them for the great memories of 2016. The King really has an awesome crew. I don’t normally do this but here I am saying to you guys ( I am talking to my crew here), I love you all and am proud to call myself your king. Let’s do it again next year.

I have been given a second chance in life, I plan to use it appreciating creation in all its glory. I have this life and I am going to live it.

The King

A few steps in The King’s shoes

Tunis airport is where I find myself right now as I write this post. I am in Tunisia for work, well I am on my way home now. Maybe let me let you in on what I kinda do for a living. I work for a company that manufactures spare parts for a certain industry. Now my job is to get sales for my company. You can call me a salesman. The little difference between me and the traditional salesman is that I do business development as well. I believe by now it will make sense to you that I get to travel a lot. The market that I am responsible for selling into is the whole of Africa. Yes I travel in the continent mostly. There is that odd out of the continent trip. I love the traveling and meeting new people and making business contacts and friends. Doing business in the industry that I work in is very challenging. One has to learn a lot of innovative ways to get to meet the right people and when you do, one has to find ways to get the business deals concluded. It is not the type of business that you wake up in the morning and go close a deal.

Now that I have set the stage for what I really want to talk to, let’s get straight to it. I like social media, more so Facebook. When I travel or I do my weekend activities, I like sharing pictures of those events. I like showing off what it is I am getting up to, well I am the one that’s there right? I stray. I get a lot of comments about how nice my job is because I get to go to all these places. I have it nice because I get to travel. Before I get into those comments, I would like to tell you what a great business trip to me is, yes I do get excited going to a country I have never been to, however the country and what it has to offer a tourist is not what I look forward to the most. I look forward to how well I can make doing business in that country easier. A great trip is for me making great contacts and having productive meetings that I can build on to eventually getting to closing a deal. What I am saying is this, when I then go out and see the country and all it has to offer, that is relationship building for me. I appreciate their country and not look down on them, people appreciate that.

When you see the lovely pictures that I share on Facebook, I am in a way advertising what the countries I visit have to offer. They get free publicity and they appreciate that. They take me to all nice places and even to those that are not in the tourist brochures. This is part of how I build relationships. I enjoy what I do. I am good at building relationships, I love traveling, I love adventure, so I guess you can see how this is a good fit for me. Someday in the near future I will want to do something else different probably, but the fundamentals of what a job must have for me to love it and work my butt off to be successful comes in to play when I choose a position. I don’t have to be always in a job that requires me to travel, I am learning how to save for trips so I can do that myself, so it can be an office job with a lot of people that I will have to work with and build professional relationships with and motivate them to perform at their best, I’ll still find that good feeling.

So yes I have a cool job when you look at it from the outside, I made the job cool, it has lots of stress and sometimes you feel like you will sweat blood. I made the choice to not let my work do that to me, I deal with a lot of challenges and I do my best to turn all that into something that will make the end of each day a day well spent. I am doing my best to master my destiny. In my journey to self-awareness I am discovering that there are many things that are within my control and all I need to do is really consider what it is I want and work hard on getting it realistically of cause. I’ve found a way to do my work and get out of it what it is taking out of me. I am not just giving, I am taking as well. 

With all that being said, maybe those who say that if you do what you love, you will never work a day in your life are full of sh*t or they are on to something. If you have a job, great, learn to get from it that which will make your heart smile, if you can’t find it, you are not a mountain, move. Yes the job market is not easy. Find innovative ways to get another job, find a way to get the job that you want. Heck start your own business. Ask yourself what the company you are looking to work for wants in the person they would employ in the position you want and go show them you are that person. You don’t have to wait for a job opening. There is power in networking. I cannot tell you how to do it because you have to find out for yourself, ask me specific questions and I will give you specific questions that will help you answer your specific questions.

Cairo is calling me by name, let me go have lunch with a friend of mine there.

The King AKA Coach H

A few steps in The King’s shoes

Tunis airport is where I find myself right now as I write this post. I am in Tunisia for work, well I am on my way home now. Maybe let me let you in on what I kinda do for a living. I work for a company that manufactures spare parts for a certain industry. Now my job is to get sales for my company. You can call me a salesman. The little difference between me and the traditional salesman is that I do business development as well. I believe by now it will make sense to you that I get to travel a lot. The market that I am responsible for selling into is the whole of Africa. Yes I travel in the continent mostly. There is that odd out of the continent trip. I love the traveling and meeting new people and making business contacts and friends. Doing business in the industry that I work in is very challenging. One has to learn a lot of innovative ways to get to meet the right people and when you do, one has to find ways to get the business deals concluded. It is not the type of business that you wake up in the morning and go close a deal.

Now that I have set the stage for what I really want to talk to, let’s get straight to it. I like social media, more so Facebook. When I travel or I do my weekend activities, I like sharing pictures of those events. I like showing off what it is I am getting up to, well I am the one that’s there right? I stray. I get a lot of comments about how nice my job is because I get to go to all these places. I have it nice because I get to travel. Before I get into those comments, I would like to tell you what a great business trip to me is, yes I do get excited going to a country I have never been to, however the country and what it has to offer a tourist is not what I look forward to the most. I look forward to how well I can make doing business in that country easier. A great trip is for me making great contacts and having productive meetings that I can build on to eventually getting to closing a deal. What I am saying is this, when I then go out and see the country and all it has to offer, that is relationship building for me. I appreciate their country and not look down on them, people appreciate that.

When you see the lovely pictures that I share on Facebook, I am in a way advertising what the countries I visit have to offer. They get free publicity and they appreciate that. They take me to all nice places and even to those that are not in the tourist brochures. This is part of how I build relationships. I enjoy what I do. I am good at building relationships, I love traveling, I love adventure, so I guess you can see how this is a good fit for me. Someday in the near future I will want to do something else different probably, but the fundamentals of what a job must have for me to love it and work my butt off to be successful comes in to play when I choose a position. I don’t have to be always in a job that requires me to travel, I am learning how to save for trips so I can do that myself, so it can be an office job with a lot of people that I will have to work with and build professional relationships with and motivate them to perform at their best, I’ll still find that good feeling.

So yes I have a cool job when you look at it from the outside, I made the job cool, it has lots of stress and sometimes you feel like you will sweat blood. I made the choice to not let my work do that to me, I deal with a lot of challenges and I do my best to turn all that into something that will make the end of each day a day well spent. I am doing my best to master my destiny. In my journey to self-awareness I am discovering that there are many things that are within my control and all I need to do is really consider what it is I want and work hard on getting it realistically of cause. I’ve found a way to do my work and get out of it what it is taking out of me. I am not just giving, I am taking as well. 

With all that being said, maybe those who say that if you do what you love, you will never work a day in your life are full of sh*t or they are on to something. If you have a job, great, learn to get from it that which will make your heart smile, if you can’t find it, you are not a mountain, move. Yes the job market is not easy. Find innovative ways to get another job, find a way to get the job that you want. Heck start your own business. Ask yourself what the company you are looking to work for wants in the person they would employ in the position you want and go show them you are that person. You don’t have to wait for a job opening. There is power in networking. I cannot tell you how to do it because you have to find out for yourself, ask me specific questions and I will give you specific questions that will help you answer your specific questions.

Cairo is calling me by name, let me go have lunch with a friend of mine there.

The King AKA Coach H

The King was shown a different perspective 

I read something this morning that inspired me. So let me tell you what I read and as you are a reading what I read I hope you will be reading what I read into it as I read it. Did I just drop a rhyme? Yes I think I just did, cool. I digress, anyway I read a response to a comment made about someone who saw a man park his very beautiful and expensive corvette. The comment was about how many hungry people could have been fed by the money used to buy the corvette. Now the money is on the response and here it goes. The corvette fed the families of the people who work at the factories that build it, and not only those, but the people who work at the factories that produced the materials to build it, the families of the people who work for the transport companies who transported the materials, the families of the people who sell lunch to the people who work at all these places along the value chain of the production of the corvette. Even with my wisdom I have to admit that I have never looked at it that way. I have never thought that a person must not buy an expensive car either because they could feed the hungry. Maybe they do contribute to the hungry and can still afford to buy the expensive car or house or even a suit for that matter.

This just got me to look at how I have for a very long time looked at the side that makes my point of view better than the other person’s point of view. I have said it before that it is easier to to draw blood than to lend a helping hand.  I ask myself how many times I have criticized people based on their decisions because I only looked at what seemed to make sense to me and not even try to look at, not even their point of view but the world view as to what could be the positive spin to what I was criticizing. I am sure that many people buy expensive things and not really give a thought to the contribution they are making to all the families in the value chain to producing those expensive goods that they are buying. This is really liberating to think about. It like there are lots of things that are in a way going right but we don’t see them because of where we are looking. This is like when you misplaced something and look for it and even say you looked everywhere and somewhat believing that you did look everywhere and even accuse people of stealing it, except you did not look everywhere.

So as always, when I come across enlightening moments I tend to taint them with a little dark thought. I got to thinking about Nkandla. As much as many things have been said about the issue, I am just thinking that had the upgrades created more jobs to a point where it could make sense, I am sure I would understand even though the whole thing would still not make sense. I mean if you look at the value chain to get to what was built, the amount of money spent could have created a serious value to a lot of families. I mean the least that they could have done with the money is build the guy a palace with lots of jobs created to match. Like I said, I just had to throw that in to taint my enlightening just a little bit. I am sure you can understand and if you don’t, for today only, The King will allow.

I have been working on myself to be more self-aware, I have told you this before. My journey of self-awareness and self-mastery is continuing and the story that I read and just told you about is a good tool to add to my toolbox. I have not yet gotten around to what I will call it but it seems to resonate with perspective. I am not sure yet the angle of perspective that I am looking at. Then again maybe the lesson is to look at all angles and be able to do so in the shortest possible time because I will not always have the luxury to reflect on the situation I might be facing. That quick reflection will assist in not jumping to conclusion because I will be aware of myself and rationally make the best possible assessment before giving my point of view.

Say after me, “I will let my mind work faster than my words”. Not you, I was talking to myself.

The King AKA Coach H

It’s yet another random pondering 

Here is my story that I am going to tell to you, you might not believe it but I swear I don’t care. So about 2 weeks ago I went to Rustenberg with a friend to attend an unveiling ceremony at my friend’s colleague’s house. Now when we finally got settled and fed, we started having some brew. As usual when the brew starts to flow so does the conversation. We talked about this and that and the MK guy that was taken a picture of naked (I don’t owe anybody good English) by some girl and the whole thing went viral. That is not of interest but just to show the range of the discussion. Good you still with me. Then the topic of rural areas and urban areas came up. It was about how we that live in urban areas raise our kids differently from how we were raised in rural areas or wherever it is we were raised. I believe we were abused most of the time and somehow we thought we were being toughened up, my foot! It was really hard growing up and I have heard many say that even with that background we did not turnout bad. I think most of us did.

I don’t think that the way we grew up was a good way to build character. If anything I think that it build a lot of selfish people. I look at what we do now that we are successful middle and upper class people. We look at where we come from and many a time we are very happy we got out of there and now we are getting our own. Each one did what they had to do to survive their circumstances and for those that I am talking about, the ones who made it, many are at the point where we are making up for the time we did not have. We are ready to exploit others to get more. Unfortunately the ones easy enough to exploit are our own people. We hardly support each other’s growth, wait a minute, this is something we all talk about when we gather on weekends or whenever we gather and talk about blacks and where we are. Most of us have had it rough and my point is to say that we should not own that as a way that made us great because that broke us into divisions that fit perfectly into the design of the aftermath of apartheid. 

I refuse to own my childhood as the best years of my life, yes I had times that I was happy and more so because I did not know any better. It was not ignorance, it was lack of knowing, check the difference. I am now getting emotional thinking about how the system of apartheid was so magnificently designed that I don’t think that its designers ever thought it would work this well way after it was meant to have ended. I guess they did not think “democracy” will happen and it will work forever, they were almost right because it is still working. Just in case you are struggling to make a connection about how you learning to cook at 11 years old or having to tend to the cows at 8 years old or whatever hard labor you were subjected to as a child had to do with the system I just referred to, it’s okay, I understand it’s a Monday. You might still see the light soon. I have said many times that we should expect what we accept and we keep accepting the system with the way we behave and it should be expected for the system to keep on keeping on.

I just simply could not resist saying something about the “we did not turn out too bad” comments I always hear about how people grew up. It just pains me to think that we accept nonsense and own it sometimes. We are better than that. I cannot begin to express how much I believe we can achieve by adapting to the reality we face today and making it work for us. I cannot because I don’t want to and also because it is something you don’t want to hear again as you have heard it a zazillion times. Oh wow I just made a word up. I think I need to define it. Zazillion means the largest number ever possible, now add that to your dictionary. So yes that is how many times you have heard the story and as much as it will give me pleasure in telling you again, I have other thing I would like to do right now so I am going to go back to addressing the matter at hand. I am still emotional right now so I should sign out before I start using profanity to illustrate certain point, f*ck.

It helps to reflect on where we are as a people and look at ways to be better. This can not be the legacy we leave behind. Let’s stop talking about it and be about it.

The King AKA Coach H

Honesty might be the best policy

Today started off on a happy note. I woke up feeling like it is going to be a good day and that was enough to start it off just right. I decided that I am really going to be scientific about this and test out the theory that if you start your day on a happy note, then nothing will get you down. I am sure nothing will get me down anyway because I tend to no allow anything to get me down. I will however for the purposes of adding to the body of knowledge accept the attempts and how effective they could have been had I been of not this stubborn minded.The experiment I am running is however not the topic for discussion today, I just threw it in there for reasons I am yet to find out. It just makes sense to have such experiments and actually prove the theories that are thrown out there about what it takes to be at a certain space in time with yourself. I find such exciting which is probably why I am still going on about it even though I would like to discuss something else. Now back to the lecture at hand. Two weeks ago I posted about throwing my fears out the window. I actually have. I got questions about that post and most were from people wanting to know if they were in the chopping block. The post was not about that. The post was about me and what I decided to do, so let’s not get ahead of ourselves and let’s make it about me.

That being said. I think that being honest about the value that one adds to the people around you has a lot to do with knowing where you are likely to stand with them (to chop you or not to chop you). This is in no way meant to suggest that you have to give your left lung to please people, however there are positives that are your way of being that add value to other people. Before I lose you, your way of being the sober minded one when it comes to silly ideas that your people might want to get into. By your nature you are able to stop people from making mistakes. This does not mean that you don’t let them take risks. So you get the idea of value add. Being a good shoulder to cry on, being able to use your knowledge of a topic to give good advice. I believe that if you add value to people, they will in one way or the other let you know and if you don’t add value in one way or the other you will know,-you know, stop lying to yourself dammit.

Just as I was getting into the flow of this post, I had to pause to take a phone call. It was from a client and trust me it had a lot of potential to really turn my good day into an otherwise day because someone did not do what they were supposed to do. I am not going to let it and I am smiling right now because this feels good because I am thinking of you as an audience that is waiting to see if my experiment will be a success. I want to prove as fact that since I started my day on a happy note, it will end on a happy note. Just had to say that again to clear any misunderstanding on the direction of the experiment.

I have digressed again. Where was I? Oh yes, they point about being honest with oneself. If I know that I am not a parasite in your life and you decide to cut me off then I will have no issues letting go because I will understand that in your mind my part in your story is done. However if I am a cause of the toxicity in the relationship, I will fight to keep the relationship. The greatest gift we can give ourselves is to be honest with ourselves. In every aspect of what we face on a daily basis. Be honest with what we are able to do and what we are not able to do. For those thing that we are not able to do, we need to learn how to do them. I have always agreed that the mind is a terrible thing to waste, using our minds to our own benefit will propel us to the future we want for ourselves.

Let me bring this home, I am on daily basis learning to be honest with myself and have to admit that I know more about the things I thought I knew. I have opened up to saying I don’t know and that is alright. As part of throwing fear out of the window I am not afraid to ask. I am honest about people I don’t add value to and I am cutting myself out before you do. I will miss what I use to parasite from you and I will learn to get it on my own.

“Fear is a powerful thing, if you learn to channel the fear that it pushes you from behind instead of standing in front of you, then you will achieve great things” I don’t remember who said that.

I am still happy

Coach H